National Siblings Day

National Siblings Day
It was all over my social media, friends and family posting pictures of themselves with their siblings. My Facebook memories showed me posts from past years that you, or I, or another one of our siblings posted. But no posts from any of the Zesch kids today, it hurts too much. I didn't realize how much it was bothering me until I was getting ready to go to bed and just fell apart for no apparent reason I cried and screamed into my "Joshie" pillow. Then it hit me, National Siblings Day, I'd been scrolling past picture after picture, and post after post, and each one was like a tiny knife in my heart. How can I celebrate a day made for siblings when one is missing? Weve recently had several family events where our whole family was together, I think my subconscious convinces me that youre just at school, couldn't get off work for the weekend, that way maybe it won't hurt so much. I think it's easier to convince myself of that when Joy is in Africa. But National Siblings Day? I can't get past it, I can't forget it, I can't convince myself of it. Today hurts, I miss you, I miss that goofy infectious smile, I miss you going crazy when you saw a cool car, or even better, texting us pictures when you got to park a cool one at work. I miss seeing you play with your neices, you loved them so stinking much, they still talk about you often. I miss you telling Jimmie, Michael and Matthew that deer they shot was too young. I miss seeing you enjoy life, I hope your living it up with Jesus, that's the only thing that makes me feel better. I know I'll see you again but however soon that is, is not soon enough. Im hurting tonight more than I have in awhile, I miss you little brother. Happy National Siblings Day Joshua Kyle.