Joshua Kyle Zesch

As many of you know, I recently lost my 19 year old brother in a car accident. I haven't kept up with our blog as much as I would like but I have been feeling like it would be helpful to me to share my thoughts somewhere so I will probably be posting here more. Happy memories of Joshua, rough days, how I'm coping etc. So, here are my random musings for today.

It has been over a week since I got the call, those days have been filled with funeral preparations and family time, now that the whirlwind is over and we have to go back to normal life without Joshua I'm not sure where to go next.

 Today I made a Spotify playlist for days that I'm missing him, songs he loved, songs about loss that I've heard before but never could relate to until now. Kaylin keeps singing the song "See You Again" by Wiz Kalifa from The Fast and Furious movies, she had never heard it before the memorial service, she told me earlier that Joshua told us in the song that he will see us again! I said he sure will!

I played Joshua this week in Fantasy Football, Joy took over his Fantasy account and won :)

After I worked out and showered this morning I was looking at the bruises on my legs from helping the boys work cattle, and I could just see him laughing at me for getting kicked.

I did my devotional on my bible app this morning and added some devotional plans for the future about dealing with grief.

Right now, I think about Joshua a few million times a day, think about good memories, or how hard the past week has been, or how to move forward, how my kids won't get to grow up with their Uncle Joshie, I think about his friends, his roommate and best friend at CFNI, and Cambry. I know that these times will slow but I hope and pray that our happy memories with him never fade. That we forever tell stories about him so that Kaylin, Kennedy, Eleanor, Kambry, and future kids feel like they knew him. I am clinging to God today <3

Joshua Kyle Zesch was born June 18, 1999 to Roy and Julie Julie Zesch of San Angelo, TX. Joshua passed away November 17, 2018 in a single vehicle accident.

Joshua is survived by his parents Roy and Julie Zesch of San Angelo and 9 siblings, Annie Zesch of San Angelo, Jenny McClure and husband Justin of San Angelo, Patty Rivera and husband Alexander of Midland, Joy Zesch, Jimmie Zesch, Michael Zesch, Matthew Zesch, Stella Zesch, and Amy Zesch all of San Angelo. He is also survived by 4 nieces: Kaylin McClure, Kennedy McClure, Eleanor Rivera, and Kambry McClure. As well as grandparents Gary and Carole Zesch of Mason, and Wilbur and Margaret Mengers of Johnson City.

Joshua was a homeschool graduate and a student at Christ For the Nations Institute in Dallas, TX. He worked as a valet at the Hyatt Regency Hotel in Dallas. He was serving in the Youth Ministry at the Rock Church in Seagoville, TX, and it was his desire to eventually be enrolled in either CFNI’s Youth Major or the Worship Major.

Joshua loved to have fun. To him, life was one big party. He loved his nieces and had lots of other children that consider him their uncle. He loved to joke, fish, drive, eat, hunt and tell stories (with some slight exaggeration). His smile and laugh were known to anyone who ever met him. He had volunteered at House of Faith in San Angelo and Celebration Church Kids Camp where many young people looked up to him and enjoyed his playful spirit.

A memorial service to honor Joshua will be held Sunday November 25, 2018 3:00 pm at Celebration Church San Angelo. Burial will be at the Zesch family cemetery in Mason on Monday November 26, 2018 at 11 am. There will be a visitation at River of Life Church in Mason Nov 26 from 1:30 to 3:30. Pallbearers will be Mike Schmitz, Sterling Barker, Weston Clark, Caleb King, Ty Harris, Jonathan Criner, Luke Huston, Joshua King, David Jones, David Chesser, Reid Needham, and Cody Wyatt.

In lieu of flowers please feel free to donate to Christ For the Nations Institute, CFNI.org

 or House of Faith ministries hofministries.org/

My facebook post as I layed awake late Sunday night thinking about him

Joshua Kyle, no telling how many times I've said that over the last almost 20 years, probably usually ending with "leave (insert sibling name here) alone!" As I lay here awake all I can think of is how proud of you I was. You were the annoying younger brother a few years ago sure, but the past few years you had grown so much. Grown in stature, in maturity, in wisdom, grown in your relationship with the Lord. And I was so so proud of the man you had become. You loved my girls and Eleanor more than anything and I loved seeing you play with them. I really cannot fathom that I won't see you again until I meet Jesus. My heart hurts tonight, my sole aches. I miss you little brother.